Heart Killer, Book 1: Frances — Part 2

The important thing to take from this rambling autobiographical preamble is, I guess, my secret predilection, which has caused me no shortage of…


Heart Killer, Book 1: Frances — Part 1

January 1995 I hesitated a good while before finally deciding to go ahead and write this memoir, detailing the experiences of my life that led me to…


Motel Man

“Shantih shantih shantih.” --- T.S. Eliot “Dance into the fire.” --- Duran Duran His motel room was his home for weeks and weeks on end. He checked…


Operation Triggerman: Aftermath

Addendum to the above document: The purpose of this report is to provide a postmortem of the undesirable outcome of the project that was titled…


Operation Triggerman: The Grooming, Part 2

The “long game” that our girl has long pursued finally begins to gather dividends. At first, she reports, she wasn’t really sure which way things…


Operation Triggerman: The Grooming, Part 1

Note our man. Take him in, regard him for who he is: no more, no less. What do you find prepossessing in his appearance, demeanor, manner of…


Under the Nihil, Part 1: Before the Nihil (Excerpt 2)

But you’ll have to forgive my giddy, grandiose formulations, Mr. X. They are an inevitable byproduct of my new, broadened state of mind. I realize…


Under the Nihil, Part 1: Before the Nihil (Excerpt 1)

You asked me to keep a record of my experiences, Mr. X. But I have refrained from doing so until this critical juncture, for no other reason than to…


The Columbine Pilgrim: Prologue, Part 2

My name is Tony Meander, and I’ve got Columbine on my mind. Many minutes have passed, perhaps an hour. I’m still standing here: smoking, pacing,…


The Columbine Pilgrim: Prologue, Part 1

My name is Tony Meander, and I am a Columbineoholic. Does that sound corny? Like I’m trying too hard to be clever? Aren’t all of these “-oholic”…