Retrospective on Education

It’s been a little more than a year since I was supposed to show up for my first day of grad school. Had I gone down that road, I would have endured…


Louisville Slugger

It started with a simple question: “Why do you keep a bat next to your bed?” For a while, my oldest brother, Jason, didn’t say anything. We were…


Sex Diary

Me: Describe to me what goes through your head when I kiss you right after my tongue has been up your ass. Be thorough. Her: I feel so eager for it,…


Blur

I woke up early today for an event that did not occur, then I stayed up to attend a gathering I decided against attending. Yesterday, I staved off my…


Why Porn?

When people get a sense of my porn addiction, they often ask, “why porn?” Like, of all the things to get hooked on, porn is probably the lamest,…


COVID Diary

I met up with Renard (not his real name) in the yellow afternoon glow of an empty Union Square. He had his bike with him, trying to pick up any…


Why is All Porn Bad?

Full autist that I am, once at a house party during freshman year of high school, I straight up asked a junior guy, “Do you know where I can find…


Same Thing (AKA Kiss What You Love)

If you don’t think titty-fucking is gross, you shouldn’t think rimjobs are gross. The two things are just about the same. Titty-fucking is done…


The Plough

"And Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God." --- Luke 9:62 Typically, when…


The Will to a Smiling Soul

She breached her apartment doorway behind her aluminum walker, dragging a torpedo-shaped oxygen tank on wheels, with hoses that slithered up and into…