How Blank Can You Get?

The blankness is all pervading. Attempted resistance only strengthens it. Example: staring at my bookshelf. A well-intentioned cousin gave me Marbles…


“You’ll Love Daniel’s Nuptials”

It’s been said that expectation is the root of all misery. We all have certain hopes of how our lives will play out as the years pass. For women,…


A Eulogy for Gil

The Would-Be Boys of Summer It started in 1939 at Route1, Box 223, on rural Zediker Avenue outside of Parlier in the middle of California’s San…


That Party at Liam’s

Liam was a fucking loser. His nickname in high school was “Eeyore.” He applied to one local college, got in, and then got on probation. Then he got…


A Dozen Suicides

Stacey had been on the “wrong track” for a long time. She’d started smoking pot with the gang in junior high and things escalated from there. With…


What Does It Mean When a Dead Porn Star Makes You Cum?

About a year ago, eFukt, America’s preeminent shock-video website, brought up an interesting philosophical question: what does it mean to jerk off…


Dusk: Thoughts on Moral Convictions — An Exercise in Submission, Forgery, and Petty Thinking, Part 5

Fourth Book: Sunfall XLII. Archeological memory: it is most painful to know one can’t go back in historical momentum, and things which are dead, are…


The Enduring Rumination

Every time I have bought opioids online, I have been ripped off. You go through the motions of downloading Tor, setting up a Wickr, and creating a…


Dusk: Thoughts on Moral Convictions — An Exercise in Submission, Forgery, and Petty Thinking, Part 4

Third Book: Moonrise XXVIII. Carpe diem, carpe Dei: when I was younger and finally mastered a little bit of Latin, I boasted to some student of the…


Ass to Mouther

“You know what the advantage of diarrhea is, Mark? It really cleans you out.” It was another one of those times where I wasn’t quite sure if I was…