Lebanotarian’s Origin Story

Call me Faisal I am humble immigrant I come to live American dream like it say on foot of green statue lady. I have been in America two weeks, and…


The White Swan

I want you to picture in your mind a large room filled with intelligent, witty, charming, and attractive people, much like yourself. It is a theater…


Retrospective on Education

It’s been a little more than a year since I was supposed to show up for my first day of grad school. Had I gone down that road, I would have endured…


Louisville Slugger

It started with a simple question: “Why do you keep a bat next to your bed?” For a while, my oldest brother, Jason, didn’t say anything. We were…


Blowing My Brains Out Clint Eastwood-Style

Within the pantheon of suicidal ideation, the action of the suicide itself holds a far lower position than it should. It’s normally the last…


Sex Diary

Me: Describe to me what goes through your head when I kiss you right after my tongue has been up your ass. Be thorough. Her: I feel so eager for it,…


Blur

I woke up early today for an event that did not occur, then I stayed up to attend a gathering I decided against attending. Yesterday, I staved off my…


Why Porn?

When people get a sense of my porn addiction, they often ask, “why porn?” Like, of all the things to get hooked on, porn is probably the lamest,…


COVID Diary

I met up with Renard (not his real name) in the yellow afternoon glow of an empty Union Square. He had his bike with him, trying to pick up any…


Why is All Porn Bad?

Full autist that I am, once at a house party during freshman year of high school, I straight up asked a junior guy, “Do you know where I can find…